deserving

Deserving

From: Madam Zelda and The Army of Shadows

Chronicled By: Jeanne Marie Nicholson

She looked at me apprehensively.

" I can't help but feel that I don't deserve all this love and support." she said.

Her eyes held a request for reassurance and at the same time, I could feel an army of little shadows surrounding her. Her Army of Shadows, made up of the shadows of herself that were ready to defend her history and beliefs of being unworthy.

I took a deep breath, and with a twinkle in my eye and a slight grin I said:

"You're absolutely right, you don't deserve it"

Her eyes widened in surprise, and she laughed assuming I was teasing her. As I watched, her shadow army stood "at ease", no longer battle ready, beacuse they thought I was on their side supporting the regulations of unworthiness.

Satisfied that the battlefield was inactive, I continued:

" Listen to this, you don't deserve love and support any more than I deserve love and support"

Now she was puzzled

" You're serious" she said, more of a question than a statement.

"Oh yes I am serious, we don't deserve love” I stated firmly and powerfully , locking my eyes with hers.

I saw her confusion, her mind shifting back and forth wanting to trust me, but finding no logic in my message.

I began again more gently ;

“I am very serious my dear, we don't deserve love because love simply is.

I paused and let it sink in, I took a deep breath and reached into my center for the graceful energy of my own God essence. I looked into her eyes and let the energy speak through me .

“Love simply is”

She began to gently nod as I continued

“ Love is already ours, it is who we are. Love is here for us just as there is air for us to breath. Deserving isn't even a part of the equation.“

My eyes locked with hers and we knew each others heart, we breathed together and I repeated :

“Deserving isn't even a part of the equation.“

An army of shadows, ambushed by truth, cast about in vain for their swords of unworthiness and their cannons of contempt.

I smiled at their ineffectiveness and affirmed for the lady:

“Love and support is here for you, simply because it is. Because Love is why we are here on this planet. We are here to give and to receive love.

Let's not waste time with some silly rules around being worthy or unworthy. I am love and you are love, underneath all of the nonsense that is all there is."

As I watched, her eyes softened, her smile widened and an army of shadows dissolved into light.